Scrolled through my archives and came across a post written exactly 1 year and 1 day ago. So much has changed over the past year and I think most importantly, I have changed. I vaguely remember my new year’s resolution for last year was to be grateful. simple but seemingly very hard to fulfil. I know people think resolutions are a novelty, an empty promise utilised to bookmark each year. I think for me, it’s something more than that. last year, marked the start of a new chapter for me: my faith. This year brings a new chapter: ending. In everything I do, I can feel the future pulling at my conscience. Adults often tell us to enjoy our youth first, to not worry about growing up too fast. But it seems like there’s something liberating about aging. To collect and consolidate and experience.
I haven’t had time to think about my endgoal for this year (well once I leave secondary school) until today. and I decided it’s to appreciate. It’s a very subtle shift from gratitude. I realise we often can give thanks for what we have but hardly consider the reasons why we are thankful for that something or someone. It seems like a good ending to a well worn chapter and something that shouldn’t be delayed before it’s too late. no regrets, no regrets.
Also, I received this today from a perfect stranger.
“hi. you may not know me, but i came across your tumblr/blog by accident … i just wanted to say that your blog posts about your faith have inspired me so much. i am a Catholic too, and i’m getting confirmed this year. and today i want to tell you that i am grateful for people like you today, because it is people like you who reassure and reaffirm me of my own faith and empower (not encourage, but EMPOWER) me to take more concrete steps towards God. so thank you :-)”
Whoever you are, I hope you don’t mind me sharing this. Reading this made me feel incredibly heartened. I am so, so happy for you. I cannot promise that your spiritual journey in faith will be an easy one, but I can assure you that indeed it will be immensely fulfilling. and you see, that’s the reason why we live by faith and not by sight.
“Now faith is the assurance of things hoped for, the conviction of things not seen.” Hebrews 11:1
so best of luck friend and let me know how everything goes :)